Relaxation or Procrastination?

I don’t know about you but I feel like New Year’s Eve and Christmas Day was already about 6 months ago.

My Christmas was soaked with family fun, friendship fun, experiencing our second Christmas with our almost 2-year-old Lukas and finally having some time away just the three of us.

I have to say I forgot how to party like I’m solo but got a good dose with a few DJ’s and amazing live bands over the break. So I definitely found my funky feminine artist again. Thanks to a whole lot of babysitting I had arranged so I could have that time out during this break.

Breaking free was incredible on a whole other level of relation for me. I realized I got stuck into a somewhat limited routine which started to reflect a version of me I never thought I would fall into – feeling and being time poor because of parenthood and everything else that image came along with.

I admit I fell back toward the end of last year to a self I did not want to be in terms of how I felt about myself and what I allowed myself to have and experience.

Just before Christmas, I laughed at an incredible 11 Day Genius Zone Challenge. This was EPIC! I cannot begin to tell you all the things that started to show up for me as a result of facilitating the training and also as a result of holding space on a whole new level.

I thought I was doing okay but when I REALLY checked myself I realized I had slipped into some habits like not getting into a flow with my writing or my music or my programs every night. I slipped into pretending to be busy but actually, I was procrastinating.

So when I allowed myself to discern what was TRULY the much-needed relaxation time and what was “avoidance and distraction” time, I could see that the excuse I was living in was “time for self and relaxation” but it was not really that at all because when I chilled out I wasn’t satisfied.

I did not feel fulfilled by my “time out”. Why??? It is because I was avoiding what I needed to be doing and how I needed to be “being”.

So back in November, I upgraded something inside of myself and stepped all things up.

Delivering the Genius Zone just revealed the top of the iceberg of goodness that launched in January and since then I have been in an evermore fulfilled space in myself and in my work. All because I said yes to a whole new effortless part of life to flow in.

I’d love to offer the 11 Day Genius Zone Challenge to you today!